My Letter to You (and there are lots of you)

Since I've been told I am inappreciative, this blog is to all of those I care about. No family members are going to be addressed. Further, I am not going to use names because I don't like folks in my biz. But thank you...

1. We have been through some times. Things that would make folks cry. Things that make me cry just thinking about it. But we are still together. This is so life long. I know I can rely on you through whatever. This past summer was not a good one for me and you were the only one there with a shoulder for me to cry on. I'm not even sure anyone else knew that I was hurting like you did. We have had our falling outs but we have grown so close. You are my best friend for life. One of these days you are going to shake those fears of yours and take over the world with me and 'special' by your side to support you like you support us.

2. My new buddy. Its funny that I knew you and never really had a conversation with you until after I was threw with Hampton. You are an extremely intelligent man. Despite your distaste for social situations, you and I are friends. I said it dammit. WE ARE FRIENDS. I'm glad to say that and I'm sure you're glad to read it (though you are probably saying something nasty to me on aim because of this). I like you almost as much as I like picking with you. You just cant move to Australia...I forbid it forever. There is no aim on deserted islands. Thanks for making me laugh at everything.

3. All summer I've tried to tell myself that I hate you. I've tried to coerce my heart into believing you actually are the scum of the earth. You aren't. You are extremely immature, self-involved, and reckless but I love you just the same. If I thought that was all there was to you this would be so much easier. But you have issues. Serious issues. Shit I cant even begin to understand even after all these years. And you keeping that mess in your head to yourself is making you more insane every minute. Maybe I pushed that insanity a little further. Just what the hell are you running from? Well, its whatever. I am supposed to try to gain from relationships that I build in life. You really taught me about unconditional love. You taught me about truly being a forgiving person. I want to thank you for that sincerely. Those changes have made me a better friend and better woman, though you will probably never see/reap the benefits. I am not going to apologize for the wrongs I've done to you. I don't ever expect you to apologize to those you've done to me. Apologies at this point would just be pointless. Irreparable damage has already been done. I wish you nothing but the best in your future. Its sad to say I'll probably never know one way or another...But things begin and things end...Life...

4. No one really knew that we were never apart. We have always been close and always will. Even your boys didn't know I was creeping (in a non-sexual way) in and out of your apartment while we were in school. Now that we are home again, things have become a lot more complicated. Yelling about whose flaws destroy 'situations' isn't helping at all. We will work it out I'm sure. We always do. We always will. You always be by my side...Even if no one else knows it...

5. The music man. I'm not sure you will even read this...But thanks for the music and dvds always. I know you probably get sick of me asking for stuff, but you come through for me so you are the GREATEST! Oh yea...And about that other stuff...

6. My newest and dearest friend from the south. In less than a year you have become more important to me than people I've known for a lifetime. I truly love and adore you so much. I knew you were special after that 'hip slapping/name signing' incident in the writing lab. So bold...How could I not appreciate that?! I was so devastated to have to leave you last year and will, I'm sure, feel those same pains when I leave homecoming. Just thinking about the day you left last spring makes me teary eyed. What makes it even more special to me is that you never once violated our friendship. You have been my true friend. And how could I not love the man who wrote me the poem...(I know you are real pressed that I said this about you...I am thinking about putting your name cause I know that would make it even better for you...I'll always be your Napoleon)...

7. My Davidson buddy. You held me down freshman year like none other and we have maintained since. You are so far away now and its so strange. I'm used to coming to your house and going to sleep (you know I'm good for sleeping). I miss those middle-the-night (my draft is due tomorrow so I cant sleep at all tonight) trips to Waffle House. So many memories. Those tattoos man...Oh and the piercings. Lol.


Okay man. I'm done. About my job when I get back on Sunday so bammas can stop asking about work. I'll see some of yall at Homecoming...Until the next time...